FooOOooHhhh~~~~ Its been a long time ever since i last updated this blog. Like i last mentioned, it aint matter whether i blog or not. No1 cares!! Hahah.. The past weeks have been really nice. Love life improved greatly. Seeing the soft side of Nerdy E'ah made me reli happy. Nothing else matters. Work as per normal. Personal life as usual.. Nothing much changed.
Hari Raya was nice. Getting to meet me all my relatives and cousins.. It had been a long time since we last sat n talked. Every1 is so bz with work life, love life. It aint like how it used to be when we can meet every weekend. Slept at each other place and just do stupid funny stuffs throughout the nite. Haha.. And this yr was my 1st yr giving out money!! It felt nice. No more waiting or wishing upon the Green Packets filled with hopefully red notes!!! Haha.. Going out visiting with her frens was nice. It was a changed. The hot weather, the nonsensical jokes.. Was nice.. The best ting during this month was Nerdy E'ah finally looked more like a lady! With the traditional clothes and stuff.. FuuuH!!! Was she hot or wat!!! Lolz.. Sori eh dear.. I noe u dun like me to praise u.. But i m juz telling the truth..
2 more weeks, 14 more days..... To the FiDDLer's 22nd Birthday...
To b excited?? Hmmm... I doubt so.. The 21st Birthday was pathetic. No1 cared.. Even the x her.. She even forgot to wish me.. Though i noe tiz is a new beginning for me.. I dun expect much. To be with Nerdy E'ah on that day would be more than sufficient. Be it my family dun care, my cousins dun even remember.. No big issues.. I have always been the blacksheep in their eyes. No prezzies or even a wish.. Haiz.. I always end up cryin on my birthday.. Oh well.. Wats the big deal about birthdays anyway!!!! Haha.. If i get no prezzies, i shall get myself prezzies then.. Hmmm.. Shall tink bout wat i should get for myself...
One day when i get married and have a family for myself, I swear that i will not be like my parents. They do not understand wat is the meaning of family bonding. Family time. Understanding each other feelings. To even juz ignore ur own child, throw him into the sea and let him drown.. Struggling.. Not even asking him whether he has any problems. Simple questions like tt.. Its so hard to hear from them. I will neve b like them. Money is not everyting. I dun need money.. I need the attention. You dun wan to give me the attention, then be it.. You wanna practise favouritism, go ahead!! One day you will noe who loves u most.. In time of hardship, you will noe who u can depend on!
I truly believe now that every1 is for himself. Nerdy E'ah's parents treat me so much nicer than my own parents. N its only bout the simple tings that they ask n do to me. The small actions that i do to them that they see the goodness in me. M not sayin my own parents are not good. But they dun try to sit n see by good side in me. The bad side, the people i mix wif.. Neve judge its book by its cover as the saying goes. N i will neve ever stop believing in tt..........
Fadli aka FiDDLer
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PROFILE
Fadli aka FiDDLer. Born on 4th November 1986. In love with a sweet cute girl by the name, Nur Fathiha. 14th August 2008 where it all began. Seeing LIFE in a different way now. Still going after his aims and ambitions.
